I was in my mid-twenties when it became apparent to me that leading a spiritually based life was the sine qua non to having a meaningful existence. Prior to making that decision, I had been a carefree lawyer with little interests besides working and having a good time.
That was nearly forty years ago, and the problem I faced was that I had been given only a vague destination and little guidance as to how to proceed. I still had to go about my life as my old self, with my old patterns of thinking, my old patterns of doing, my fears and my foibles.
During the next twenty years of stumbling, fumbling and blithering along, one memory of that transformative period stood out: a close friend advised me to “choose a path with a heart.”
In 1992, I met Nanette Hucknall, then a teacher of Agni Yoga. The only thing I really knew about Agni Yoga was that it was a path with a heart. Being a lawyer, of course, I had to conduct my due diligence; and it was only then that I asked to become her student.
Through the years, her teaching has evolved into Higher Self Yoga, which combines Western psychology with Eastern philosophy. This became the key to my spiritual growth, because I had always ignored the importance of self-discovery through therapy. I had realized that a spiritual life meant, first of all, improving my character, yet I had made little or no effort to change. In fact, I didn’t know that change was necessary, or even possible.
I have walked, sometime run, the Path of Higher Self Yoga for many years now, and as a result I have changed. I am living the dream promised to me in my twenties. In fact, I could not have imagined the life now given to me.
As a result of therapy, meditation, study and the gentle guidance of my teacher, I barely recognize the person I used to be. Besides the daily dedication to my spiritual practice, my role as a responsible, caring member of my family and my community has gradually evolved. I have come to appreciate and embrace the gift of life with all its ups and downs.
A discriminating yet accepting attitude towards my fellows has replaced harsh judgment and criticism. My ability to carry on loving relationships with family and friends, and even new acquaintances, has improved beyond my wildest dreams. And above all is an awareness that the sense of continually evolving personally and spiritually into a oneness with my Higher Self is the greatest gift.